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As a young child I can remember going to church with my grandmother and a few times my parents got involved in church but for the most part I did not have a christian education. As I became a teenager I started looking at girls and alcohol and the occasional experiment with drugs. I did go to church a few times around 18 but it was just because my girlfriend’s parents expected me to. For the next several years is was girls, tobacco, fast cars, and alcohol. Many times I would go out partying with friends get drunk cops start chasing us and I would out run them. I had one small town that put the word out that if they caught me I wouldn’t just go to jail that they would put me under the jail! At that time I thought that was cool and never let it stop me from going to their town. Being blessed with the ability to work on my own cars I always had a car that would run really fast and I thought I needed to go over 100 mph everywhere I went. This mindset stayed with me until my late 20s when I started to settle down a little. I remember about 22 I started driving a truck hauling loads cross country for an outlaw company that didn’t care how you drove as long as the load was delivered. Yes I drove the truck over 100 mph as well and would run 2 or 3 days with maybe 4 hours sleep. My brain did function enough while trucking not to drink while driving the truck. I look back at this time and thank God a school bus never pulled out in front of me because there would have been no way to stop 80,000 pounds in a short distance.


As I started getting some age and wisdom I realized it was not necessary to drive like that all the time! Of course the paying fines, high insurance and always having to work on my cars because of the abuse helped to open my eyes. In trucking the penalties started getting real severe. This is a point I would like to note that we all have to come to a place that is uncomfortable enough that we are willing to change. I thank God it was not a prison sentence that changed me.

As I previously stated I started driving a truck about 22 which was 1988 and then I went army and then back to trucking and then a mechanic and other jobs for awhile and it was at this time life changed.  I had been going through a tough financial and emotional time trying to find a purpose in life and 1 evening setting on my bed I cried out to God asking what he wanted me to do? It seemed like he sat down beside me and said I want you on the road to help my people. The next day I called a company I had worked for before and went back to driving a truck. This was a good time in life, it seemed I was frequently finding people that was stranded or broke down on the road and was able to help them and speak the love of God into their life. You might say this was a period of christian education, I went through one period where the spirit of God was so heavy I couldn’t keep from praying for people. I had one instance an officer was checking my paper work and we started talking about personal problems and I just started praying for her. I had a dog that rode with me and she had gotten into some poison at a motel and I watched her take her last breath. This was one I had a deep love for and started praying and the Holy Spirit came over me and I started speaking in tongues and watched my dog come back to life and looking at me as if to say what was that! I have seen God provide when it seemed there was no way.

As I am writing this and remembering all the times God was at work for me and through me I find myself struggling to even appear to be a Christian. As many times before I go through points of life where I feel the great power of God for awhile and then it seems I fall on my face and all the power available is only what I can produce. I know God has a plan for me I have received several prophecies from other people over the years that tell me there is much more to my life than what I have seen or even imagine. For me it is hard to think God would even want to use me but the bible tells of him using a donkey so I guess even I can be used.

In trucking I told of being called to the road. I tried to help people for several years and had many great experiences even one that I was giving a ride and he disappeared when we stopped! That makes me wonder (did I give Jesus a ride). Then I started looking at bigger things like getting into heavy haul and I watched God open the door for me to do that and was good at it even though many times I look at something I had hauled and can’t figure out how I done it so I know the Lord was with me doing it. I started getting more and more job and money focused and less focus on what God wanted me to do. This point in my life I am the most ashamed of because I had watched God take me from not knowing how I was going to pay my bills to a very successful heavy haul truck driver making more than I ever thought possible. There was one point I had put my income into a loan application on line and it showed I was in the top 5 percent of wage earners in the USA that was incredible for a country boy like me. But I did not give God the time he deserved and I watched as his hand was removed from me and now I’m working to get back to that place where I have a great relationship with my God. It’s not because of the money but it is the feeling of knowing you are walking with the King of kings the creator of everything that I miss so much. I can remember being the happiest I have ever been and not having any money at all but just the peace and joy of the Lord Jesus Christ. My christian education has not been from setting in a class room but from the hard knocks of life. From one mistake to another and today I still keep trying to get it rite. Thank God for grace and Jesus for paying the price of my sins.